crank that!

2010-06-20T11:26:00.004+08:00

Hey, I'm back.

Its been weeks/months that I didn't meet these people. No doubt, I fucking miss them more than they miss me. Grounded sux.

Life has been totally upside down. When it was well planned for future ahead, it went crushed like a piece of garbage. I put aside my all time organizer, and didn't even look back. I guess its dusty already. Fuck it. Fml.

Other than that, I broke off with my going-to-be-two-months boyfriend. Well, we had to. But I'm cool. No tears.

With all these shits came all at once, I have to put up a strong faith in myself. Cos after all, I can't keep depend on my friends. True? I live this shitty life for two weeks now. And I'm enduring it, pretty much getting used to it already.

I did a lot of thinking lately. How much I caused trouble to my closed ones. A sudden grounded leave everyone's mad? Well, some mad at mother. I had to leave Delifrance so sudden, and that colleagues had to work longer hours. How much worst can I feel? And with Mr Aw gave me a job as student instructor for his school, which I'm already comfortable with the kids there, I had to stop so sudden when I already agreed to it.

What got me thinking most is, Am I a good section leader? I feel so much useless in myself. cos whatever I did doesn't seem right. I had to back out for july's competition, so sudden. And that got me a nag from Lim. The least I could ask from him is to understand, but he didn't. Fuck it. I feel real bad to leave band, cos its like I left my responsibility hanging. I guess what Lim said was true, 'What kind of section leader are you uh?'

With all these responsibilities I have on my shoulders, I had to like shoved it off. The feel of guiltiness forever lingers. Maybe I'll die with it. :'(

Okay, I've let out almost what I've been thinking and felt. More will come, it never stops. Never.

I want apologise to everyone, whom got affected with the shits I went through now. Usually, I'll lose friends if shit happens. So, you guys may choose not to be friends with me after this. Heh -_-Really I am, sorry.

One thing I kept in mind, things will get better.

Have faith in yourself, haniz.

Bye all.

2010-04-14T10:55:00.002+08:00

i need a break.

2010-04-06T10:59:00.008+08:00

313 @ Somerset > City Hall > Bayfront Road

Just us four. Bestf is finally nineteenth. (:

I love you buggers every bit. ♥

p.s I still owe you one gigantic distorted pooh bear. Hahaha.

2010-03-31T09:40:00.002+08:00

I got a damn fucking D for UFC! Hmpf.

Results depressing. How?

& Mother is fucking unsupportive.

"Bapak kau da malas nak layan, dia ckp gi kerja full time sudah. Takya buang masa, buang duit kat luar. Da fail tu fail."

-_______________- wtf right.

Well I used to say, no wonder there's a term called motherfucker, cos its for mothers like her.

Ahh bye.

2010-03-19T13:25:00.004+08:00

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

I'm not missing you

You might have had me open

But I must be going because I've got life to do

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you go

But this time it's different

I don't even feel the distance

I'm not missing you

-Stacie Orrico

Listenin to Stacie's over and over again.

Her lyrics means alot, and what I'm going through now.

Be it love or life. :/

FML

2010-03-19T12:56:00.003+08:00

Close both eyes, hold my breath

And I'm still alive.

Weather is getting unpredictable nowadays

And I tend to feel ups and downs.

Unpredictable, I tell you. One moment happy, another moment feeling fucking low.

I'm glad I'm still alive.

I just need space to breath.

"You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile" - M. Jackson

2010-03-15T11:05:00.004+08:00

Its Monday. And the whole new experience starts here.

All the best to myself. No shits, hopefully. (:

Sexcited to wear new Warriors!

And how would I ever know that its the same as Bff?

-___________-

My schedules are packed, and I likeeeee.

But hopefully, mum and dad don't give me a hard time plsss.

*cross fingers*

MUSE Competition is nearing, and the band is only half prepared (??)

I won't be surprised if we didn't get what we aim for.

For now, lets chiong our very best, band. (:

15th today, someone's turn legal already.

All the best. (:

Till then, I need to go tanning, real soon plsssss!

Bye.

2010-03-09T22:06:00.002+08:00

I'm just afraid that it'll come back.

I could only think of the worst.

Tomorrow shall parrrtay our ass off.

& Hopefully returning to Deli Dash is the right decision.

Bye.

2010-03-05T10:51:00.012+08:00

& I think I should.

I've been telling that to Ninaa.

It'll be real soon. Once the finals are over.

Yes I really need a getaway. Trust me.

Away from each and everyone would be good.

But first I need a hug. A warm tight hug.

p.s ily still.

2010-02-28T22:48:00.004+08:00

It has always been me to be the cause of our miscommunications,

Why why? We need to talk

I'll be waiting for your call tmr then. ):

P.s How much I've always treated you in bad ways, you're still the best I ever had.

Bye.

2010-02-27T03:17:00.010+08:00

today was au' som and worthwhile.

and luv is the topping of everything.

i should stop blabbering about him now.

cos he have satellites everywhere.

and he said i have 'imisslalaluv syndrome'

& another syndrome that should be disclosed.

wtf, hahahaha. you should consider yourself a stalker then.

'i wanna know what love is

i want you to show me'

- mariah carey

okay bye. and smile!

2010-02-24T17:58:00.004+08:00

you won't change. it'll be miracle if you do.

i love you. and you know that.

i'm waiting for the time where i totally will give up on you.

but i know myself better, i just can't. but i will.

time will tell, bby.

bye.

i just need bff, xida bestf, nina for now.

that's all matter to me now.

2010-02-21T22:34:00.010+08:00

ITE CONCERT BAND ANNUAL

GAMES DAY

The Poseidon

Section Leaders 2010

Exco & Committee 2010 (:

Finally, the ITE Concert Band ♥

These are the main ones. More on Facebook.

Saturday was ze' bombxzx.

We had to run from 1st level to the 5th level, then back to 1st, then back again to 4th, then run half of soccer field in that fucking big school. With flour sticking all over our body. No lifts, just staircase. Yes, NO lifts. & that staircase was high enough that half the time i crawled up. -__- How bad was that. Hmpff! Good thang I didn't cursed. I think I shed some weight too. Hahaha!

Nevertheless, with the awesome mate I have, we managed to pull through. The three juniors in my team are the 'dgr kata punya org'. Good eh. Hahaha. Thumbs up Poseidon! (Y)

ITE Concert Band rock my fugly sockssss! \m/

Lets aim high, and chiong for our upcoming two competitions okay. (:

2010-02-19T12:18:00.004+08:00

saat ini, sesungguhnya saya sedih nak mampos.

i read, and i heard. ):

takpe la.

can i not go for tonight's practice?

cos' i don't want see the unexpected.

2010-02-16T18:02:00.005+08:00

I wonder if i still exist in your life, bestf? Now that you seems to be very very busy with work, that we rarely contact now. I sensed of lost in my life now. I always tell things to you. There's hell loads to tell. I've been keeping it more and more. And you'll always be there whenever I feel sad, and understand bits and pieces of me, and crack stupid remarks that'll make me laugh. But now no more? Yes, I miss you very very much bestf. Whats more we hadn't been hanging out nowadays. Well it seems that you got nothing lose, cos' you've got them to fill up your time now. Mayb I should be understanding enough, and patience? Hohummm. This is one of the reason why I'm feeling down and low lately. I hope you know that )': Bye.

2010-02-15T00:47:00.004+08:00

Where are you, friendsssss? ):

busy busy busy huh. haiyaaaa.

2010-02-15T00:13:00.005+08:00

Guess who did i met recently?

Police boy in blue there, and Shafiq. (:

2010-02-14T10:46:00.005+08:00

I'm confused.

Everything happened so fast.

& Everything i did seems wrong.

Fck it.

2010-02-12T00:53:00.005+08:00

sometimes i wished i don't exist in this world. even if now i live for near nineteen years, i wished i'm dead. how long should i stay in this cruel world? sometimes i said enough is enough. but its never enough. it'll come back over and over again. i feel lonely as a daughter. sometimes i feel neglected by friends. then who should i turn to then. i screamed my lungs out to my pillow, my tears wet my smelly pillows. no one will ever hear. i'll cry myself to sleep, and i wake up in the middle of night, having nightmares. i wanted to screamed for mum, but i knew she won't bother. and when i woke in the morning, my eyes shagged. i could feel my heart beats heavier, and that i couldn't breathe properly. no one ever knew, this shit of life i'm through. cos once i stepped out from my room, put up a mask and fit in to the society. and i've been forgetting to eat lately. even if i'm hungry, it doesn't grumble. restless nights, lack of sleep is a routine now. and all i did was staring up the ceiling in the dark, see nothing but just dark ceilings. you think you know me so well, but you don't. sadly, you don't. no one will. tonight's gonna be another restless night, tossing and turning. bye world.

2010-02-11T23:09:00.009+08:00

At the most down side of life. It sucks harcore.
I promise, that I'll post something way better than this.
Meantime, pictures uploaded at Facebook.
(Wonderous @ Botanic, Nad's Flight etc)

Anyway, happy nineteenth to my one and only Siti Fatima Azmi
Sorry, aku tak maksud nak lupa birthday kau.
& kau tadi balik tak blg aku sei. i sad ):
Bsok bsok bsok! Kita gi sheeeeesha okay. Walaupun kau tak sheesha kan.
Takpe, we'll have fun. Girls night out, again. Weee. (:

To add on, I miss lalaloveeee ver ver much. ♥

2010-02-07T12:03:00.005+08:00

Saturday was worth spent with Wonderous at Botanical Garden. Au'som night with them. ♥

Its been a hectic week. I hope things will be better next week (?) Sheeeesha soon for me! Weeee. ^^

2010-02-03T22:35:00.003+08:00

Fucking bad day today.
& you're one fucking irrtating whore.
bye.

anw, tmr is the day. wish me luck. i need it. no more shits please.

2010-01-31T12:17:00.023+08:00

(see! full moon.. ahh i lalaloveee ^^)

saturday was random yet au'som! its been awhile since i stepped to town. i and isque met diana during her break time, we sat outside 313 @ somerset and washed eyes (cuci mata la!). we're like sort off gave critics/comments to some passerby-s. hahaha. da kes takde kerja okay.

i and isque went shafiq's flea market at orchard central. like omfg, the flea markets was like ze' bombzx! so cheap. i wanted to get those dresses and my-boyfriend tee shirt, but heck no money no talk. ): but but.... isque bought bubble gum earpiece for us two. adorable much sia that bitch. aha! ^^ too bad his earpiece don't have the left-right signs. =p (tu la tak check betul-betul) so we waited for shafiq, and bounced back home. pity shafiq, he looked damn shagged.

thks isque for the au' som night! i hahahate you, bitch. sehidup semati lu tetap teman sejiwa gua uh babe. & ytd was full moon! awww~ where there's full moon, there's us. cute! hahaha. bestmates foreverrrrrr *wiggle fingersss* ok whatever much sei.

ps i bet somehow someday that bonchet gonna read this blog. & whats more, twitter. hahaha. here's for you, i lalalove you, bonchet♥. how i wish Ns don't exist, and that you won't go away.

2010-01-27T00:38:00.011+08:00

minah and mat talk. i swear i was cursing throughout the conversation. famous word; cb. that is why we're best of mates. we make world of our own, talk all sort of awesomeshitxzx that won't bore us. i miss iskandar ramadhan, and i know he don't. cos he's a fucking bitch. (:

2010-01-24T17:16:00.005+08:00

does happy pills exist? i need some plss.

firstly, happiest 21st birthday sher♥!!

yesterday was fucking long day for us. usual practice in the morning, and sher's 21st birthday chalet till late night. it was ze bombzzxz. and ffilarun (aliff) was there too!! miss that bugger marn. thanks xida's parents for the awesome new car ride. i'm lucky that i didn't get grounded. HAHA such thing call grounded at the age of 18? ouh yeaa you got that right. -fml-

& i called soulmate. tergerak hati nak call since da berzaman tak jumpa. maklum lah org tu da ada boy-prennnnn. hahahaha oopssss.

today supposed to be family outing to the beach, but as usual parents tend to take back their words. alaaaaaaaaaaamak bingit betul! -____- i should have stay over at sher's chalet if i knew they've cancelled it. ugh.

now, tell me where do i get happy pills? or even anti stress pills plsss.

and yesterday i brought back home with a responsibility on my shoulders. since i wasn't the first choice in mind, i'll prove my self and that you won't regret. what i have now is my fantastic trombone section which we still have the strong bond in us. keep up guys.

new resolution: to like kids.
(cos' all along i hate those irritating noisy kids, wailing babies or toddler)

i know thats random. but ytd xida wanted to take picture with a this kid. but the kid seems to walked away, and xida (-.-) like gundu follow the kid. hahahaha. i felt rather irritated, so i grab the kid and carried him. naaaaaa problem solved! but the kid didn't want to look at the camera. i felt like giving him kiss, cos he's cute actually. (: hehehe gatal. eh, atleast i tried to make my resolution work okay!

2010-01-21T11:09:00.002+08:00

you'll always be my favourite

i swear thats random. ^^

currently in class. doing nothing, wandering around, at the same time feeling pissed. (Y) ok bye mofos.

anw, i'm still joblessssssssss. GRRR.

2010-01-19T01:39:00.005+08:00

& i'm not asking anything from you, luv.
want know smtg? i like your hug. (:

met some awesome ppl. and hangout @ CCK. the wind was cool. very much cold that i shivered as it blows. its going to be 2 am. and i'm quite awake still. GREAT! -.-

eveyone's seem to be busy. and i could say that i'm free most of my time. one reason; I'M UNEMPLOYED. unlike most of my friends. awesome pa. hmpff. I NEED A JOB, seriously. SHER! NINA! Can I work at hotel tu??

i should be sleeping, cos' i need to wake up as early for sw. and i can't afford to skip cos' its 'black' already. i wouldn't want fail that fucking module else i need retake. mrepek kan. alaaa lazy!

anw, i have this classmate whom i have nothing against with. its going to be a year already, only now i know that she fucking hate me. i find it hilarious though. cos' my laughter seems to be her problem. wtf sia girl. please laa, don't let me start critising your skin colour, cos' i fucking hate your race. sorry no offence. why would i not hate you, when you've been making faces behind my back. one day i hope to punch your fucking mickey mouse face, grab & twist you rebonded hair, drag you and kick your skinny stomach and butt. and also, dig out your fucking big eyes. waa shiokkk. (Okay thats too much I know. But fck it!)

i'm sooooooo gonna meet you tmr, or worst, for the next two months. i swear i'm shoot ugly nasty words on you back, girl. you're messing with the wrong bitch here. HA HA HA.

I NEED A JOB asap can.
k bye sucka.

2010-01-14T22:02:00.002+08:00

can i dig my head in a hole and never come out?
AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
k fuck bye.

ily♥

2010-01-13T02:05:00.005+08:00

& i cried.
first cry in 2010.
)':

there's a song goes; baru lah, aku mengaku cinta kita telah musnah.
anw d.a, eventho' if we're still friends. it'll be totally different.
but i hope its not. :/

& bonch, imy.

2010-01-10T18:20:00.006+08:00

feelings change overnight. thats what i feel.
things happened for a reason. thats what i thought.
despite listening to xida's advice, i let nature takes it course.
waited for answers to come.
& God opened up my heart and accept the fact.
accepting the fact that i leave you in dilemma.
& you've actually waited for her long enough.
and i, is just mere crush?
see, the answers came to me by itself.
with you pretending nothing happened.
when new year's eve was aww-so-sweet to me.
but now its gone. vanished... and never it'll ever happen again.
bcos your words are just pure words. isn't it?
when your heart is for someone else since past six years.
i always being left hanging.
knowing the truth, i myself confused.
how should i feel now?
happy? sad? disappointed?
i let it be.
i wished to step back. so you won't be in dilemma.
i wished that you're happy,
and that the girl will one day accept you for who you are.
but one thing for sure, i'm still here for you if you're in need.
maybe cos' i'm already in love with you.
surprisingly, i am.
besides, we're best of friends still.
thats enough for me already.
stay that way. that would prevent being hurt.
till then, ilyboy. ♥

now that, i penned down all my thoughts that i kept since last night, or even past weeks.
i hope to fulfill my project without any disturbance in mind.
by tonight. or my group will get penalised. sorry girls ):

at the same time, i miss umairah my dear soulmate, badly.
i hadn't meet her for quite some time.
bbygirl, i missssssssed you. plsss meet sooon okay?
i loveeee you bby.

k bye world.

2010-01-03T16:34:00.004+08:00

besides those loveshits i'm facing right now, there's always some people who made my day. & this is what happen when STEPH gets bored. she'll be nonsense. i've printed screen isk and i conversation but its fucking gone cos i didn't save properly. fck it.

2010-01-03T14:25:00.003+08:00

i miss you ver ver much, boy
& i shall wait 'till you're certain of your feelings/thoughts
just don't leave me will you :/

sch's in tmr. and i'm looking forward for the next holidays already. but that'll be another 2mths? ahhh holidays come faster. k bye.

2010-01-01T15:50:00.004+08:00

i've been staying at home for... two days? freaking bored i know. at least xida is here, right behind me reading what i'm typing. kaypoh right. can say that again. hahahaha! alalala. love love kamu la bengok. ♥

tmr tmr !! band practice. meeting every one. i'm sooooo sex-cited! k bye. (:

almost forgot, happy 2010 world. peace people.

2009-12-31T15:14:00.005+08:00

so d.a is no more in my dictionary. tuesday was a disastrous date, but i managed to pull through cos amin and xida were there for me. i know they love me more. hehehe. syg kamu dua♥ -to d.a: thx for being honest like only now. oh well, all the best to your future career. be filial & make your parents happy la eh. next time when you're in love with whoever next, pls don't put the girl SOOO much high hopes. cos you'll break their heart. &apologising won't make things better. i know sometimes things won't go our way ma. ya true, you are noob in this. anyway, i was trying too hard liking you. cos, you kno, initially i like a.k more. (: oops sorry? haha. goodbye then.

i regretted for making the wrong move. & i cried like stupid bitch for hurting a.k's heart. i hope for another chance given. it takes time, but i'm willing to wait. (:

2009-12-28T18:03:00.002+08:00

i have a date with d.a♥ tmr. better be a good one. cos having red light now really annoyed me. & xida, i can't wait to meet you too. k bye.

2009-12-24T18:01:00.002+08:00

love actually

I've always love that movie since I was 12. (:

Anyway in case I forgot, Merry Christmas to all and Happy New Year. I'm still out of plans for new year eve. Soulmate already booked me out, so thats cool.

The feel of Christmas brings back when I newly started work @ Delifrance. We have to wear that freaking Santa's cap. Adorable much right! & Everytime I walked passed the outlet, I find it cute of them wearing it. I still keep the cap inside my closet. Huhu.

New Year's Eve which I'm not really look forward to. I don't know why. Its like... 2010 already?? That fast?! I have yet got my 2010 resolution. Oh maybe one, new mobile soon please. LG's going back to bestie tonight. ): Sony's is giving me fucking hard time. Ugh.

I'm practically in love with D.A ♥

2009-12-21T13:42:00.003+08:00

dear santa, i fcking want that shoe plss

to one and only bff; whatever means or whatever happens, i'll never forget you. you're someone to me. &if i've been behaving like a bitch to you, doesn't mean my love for you as bff vanished. rmbr that. yes, you going through the down side i see. you left me feeling uneasy/confused whenever you're not yourself. come to me and talk, bff. i love you every bit. ♥

2009-12-18T03:09:00.005+08:00

I'm prettymuch excited, cos Paramore's coming to Sg next year March! Tickets on sale already. I wanna go badly, I wanna see Hayley.. Santa, I wished to have 108 bucks plssssss. Anyone up for it?

I wanna go swimming later, but nowadays rainy season is the best time to hibernate in my room and sleep. Hahaha. Plus I have to start vocal lessons already, I've been missing alot of it lately. Hmmm.

Its 3.30am now, and I'm quite awake. Facebook getting slower each day, and its like eating up my fcking time uploading the pictures. Especially Tuesday party pictures. Ugh. Sorry guys, its like delaying. I've tried.

I'm hungryyyyyyyyyy, and I feel like eating cup noodle. Ahh k bye.

2009-12-14T16:20:00.002+08:00

Its Monday, and I have nothing to worry about school. I'm sex-cited for tmr's party! It'll be awesome, spending a night with ze best. Don't worry, I'll snap pictures using Shafiq's Fujifilm. Haha. I hope dad give me money. I left nothing inside my wallet. Not even a cent. Sad story huh. Syikin asked me out to find work, but I'm lazy enough to go out today. Heh. I need ciggs please.

I like someone, but I let nature takes its course. (: Hehehe. Till then, miss me kiss me mofos.

2009-12-13T15:08:00.008+08:00

Its Sunday, and I'm going swimming later in the evening with the awesomesss. I have tons of plans ahead, and I'm pretty much broke. Ahhhh money can find anyway. Haha. I'm jobless, and I chose not to find cos I'm tired of working. So my holidays are gonna be ze bombxzxzzxz with partayssssssss and hangoutss. Besides I miss staying at home, sooooo ya.

P.s I've deleted you from my Facebook account, due to the fact I hate stalker. I don't need stalker. You're sucha a pain in the ass. And I ain't anybody's girlfriend. I'm single and i mingle with whoever I want to, bitch. I pity you, that he left you. So saddd uh. Fck it. (:

2009-12-07T00:53:00.003+08:00

3pm, boy. (:

2009-12-02T01:27:00.007+08:00

I'm down.
This make my day.

I miss both of them already, and Amin & Nina too. ):

2009-11-21T12:34:00.002+08:00

i'll be away.
up up and away.
at the top of the mountain.
catching the puffy clouds
and gazing the stars.

will be back soon.
bye all. ♥

2009-11-19T00:40:00.003+08:00

i love the make up. but i look like 'bapuk'.
hahaha -_-
bye.

2009-11-18T02:08:00.001+08:00

i wanna scream my ass off!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

)':

2009-11-16T17:03:00.006+08:00

I've let you go.
So plss, don't come back.
No tears.
Bye, c.boy.

2009-11-13T00:05:00.003+08:00

as for today.
i cried. )':

2009-10-15T00:26:00.001+08:00

will be away.
far
far
far
away.

till then, bye.

2009-10-01T10:46:00.011+08:00

30 september. babygirl's thee birthday celebration was rocking ass. since everyone's practically legal, so we did whats legal. we went for sheesha for a start, and chilled our ass off. afterthat we had drink and puffed most of the time. everyone's get cranky and high. i swear everyone's were half conscious already when heading home. babygirl, happiest legal eighteenth. i hope the salty baked fish pasta kenyang kan you. hehehe. maklumla, nenek nenek yang masak. lol. and i'm still the best you ever had kan kan kan. you know i'll always find time to spent time with you whenever you're in need kan. like you've always quoted; soulmates go through ups and down tgdr maa. love you forever and ever babe! xoxo.

i met amin my husband [HAHAHA!], and the rest since i don't feel like going home. this time, i felt abit more comfortable with them. so i hope sunday will be bomb diggity! and i reached home at two in the morn. no bus, and too scary to walk. so i took taxi which cost me $6! midnight charge like wtf. -.- nvm safety first. betul?

p.s i trusted you for all these years, and all i get from you is just shitsx. wtf sia kau. prangai mcm pukimekkkkkkkkkkk. you know me well, i hate liars. so now, i hate you. if you see me anywhere, and i give you my shitty face means this post is about you. okay? okay set! HA HA.

looking on the bright side, tmr's friday. && hsff is coming back from his camp tmr! yessssss i can't wait i can't wait. i miss you la cinaboy. ver ver much. meet up soon la k. (:

Attn:
5S2 Yok Raya Yok 2009
Time: 2.30 pm
Venue: My house
Jgn skip solat jumaat for the boys, and ample time for the girls to siap and make up all okay. Don't paitao plssss. Itu aku lagi bingit. Tak jadi datang, blg aku straight. So, I hope tmr's gona be fun like past years la kay. So see y'all! Loves.

2009-09-29T00:54:00.002+08:00

hsff.
plsss be back home soon.
i'll pray for your safety to and fro k.
whatever happens, control your anger.
i really hope to meet you soon, boy.
movie again can?
have fun adventuring!
sygg you sgtsgt tau. ♥
xoxo

2009-09-28T03:05:00.005+08:00

out of boredom, i've made myself tumblr account. actually, i need it, to pen down my inner thoughts in more straight forward way. cos' i kno' there's eyes for ohdear-datindiary.bs, it's equivalent no privacy. and i always end up getting people asking who did i referred to, or worst made wrong assumptions and did hate-post. fcking irritating you know. goodness.

i'm not in the mood fer anything. my main focus is to get as many shifts, cos' i want get extra cash fer genting trip end of november. raya tetap raya, kerja tetap kerja.

to my fb husband, i know i always show attitude to ya.
but, you already get masak nasi + spaghetti with me kannnn.
love ya many many (:

on brighter note: i somehow look forward fer wednesday. i'm gonna be the best she ever had. (:

2009-09-26T23:19:00.011+08:00

where is everyone?? i went online, and heck all my sidekicks didn't online. okay understood, busy raya maybe. so i was entertained by this exboyf of mine. we practically did nothing, just chatting and make faces. remembering all those mrepek words we used to say. aha, and its been ages since we seen each other. okay that's it. (:

p.s out of the sudden i feel so wrong. i shouldn't have told you all these. i really shouldn't, but the words just came out. should i feel, regret? i think so. i don't know. just let time passes? it'll all get better in time? aku seriously tak tau... apa aku tau, aku paranoid gilaa. da tu je. :S

p.s.s neither i want be the third party, nor the only one clapping. so, let it go is the best way i think. so yeaa. dear friend, nothing's gonna happen. its you and him. not me. i have my own fairytale.

2009-09-24T10:33:00.015+08:00

kent and suriati waited fer my shift to end, and we chilled at starbucks. actually we're more to stoning, but as night gets older three of us get cranky. you wouldn't want know what we did. only God knows. hahahaha. okay sshhh. (:

and yea, some people want see my new revamp hair. here it goessss, mofos.

so, girls out there whose crazy over twilight saga. i bet you'll hoogahooga over these. why?? *point below* and new moon will be out soon! whose up fer movie?!

2009-09-18T14:02:00.019+08:00

thursday night.

i had an awesome date with the wonderous.
first time hanging out with them.
we talked, and laughed real hard.
that night was just great. we had fun times.
and btw, 'blood ties' movie was gruesome!

like i've said befo, they're the best i ever had.
11 October awaits.
♥ ♥ ♥

2009-09-18T01:45:00.012+08:00

Muhammad Amin & Haniz Ella is officially married.
thru facebook.

Due to economy recession, we haven't got own house yet.
So we spent our first night, webcamming.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

p.s i had a great time last night. awesome date. thanks wonderous. ♥
raya make video k! mustmustmust! 11Oct will be our next date. can't wait!

2009-09-13T16:47:00.009+08:00

break fast with hsff on friday was awesome. [?]
thanks ver ver much boy fer the surprise treat.
i was flattered, you know. tho' you finished half of mine.
yet i enjoyed every bit of it.
♥ ♥

saturday was band photo taking.
was annoyed with some people. and i felt paranoid fer some reasons.
nina love, thanksss fer the gift.i loveeeeee it frickin' much.

work fer this week somehow fun.
with the kaki gereks.
manisah rebonded her hair. i was astonished to see her new look.
like cleopatra, really!

raya in a week time.
i hadn't start much fer cleaning.
need to stop lazing around and get on my feet.
hmpfffff.

if only...
p.s i have a date on thursday night.
awesome one.

2009-09-10T01:02:00.010+08:00

life's a bitch. i need a chill pill.
i think and think and i end up crying.
mixed feelings. alot of shitxss in mind.

i'm not looking forward for weekends.
i don't feel like going to work either.
but i don't want stay at home. rimas.
life is in mess. i need shout and hug.

fml. fck it.i wanna die.

2009-09-05T17:22:00.006+08:00

I don't know.
I'm trying not to tell you.
Cos I'm scared of what you'll say.
That I'm ...
Or maybe I should just keep this to myself.
But I miss you ver ver much, boy.
♥♥

2009-09-04T00:13:00.003+08:00

seven days off.
i need ciggies.
fml.

brighter note;
i have a study date over at terminal three today.
and break fast with the clans.
better be a good one.

2009-09-03T23:08:00.017+08:00

Hello mofos. Its been awhile. Miss me?
Let me update what's hot lately okay.

BPP Delifrance Farewell Party on 21st.
It was a blastblastblasting.
All those sweats, and time spent worth everything.
They're the best I ever had. ♥
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Eighteenth on 23rd
I celebrated with dear Amin with his clans.
He gave Ben & Jerry and Doraemon cake.
Not forgetting, Xida who lied to me. And make me wait.
But it worth waiting. Cox I finally get to blow candles after so long!
Thanks girl. And thanks Bff♥
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Baybeats on 28th.
I went with Soulmate, Yazrin, Atiqah & Feer.
We had our break fast over at the Beach Road.
Yadiyadiyaya. Headed to Esplanade.
Baybeats was okaylaa. Good music I heard. (:
Amran drove us to Heeren. We chilled and puffed at Spinelli.
Great night spent with my awesomest. Sheesha next time?
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More pictures will be upload at Facebook.
Till then, miss me more! xoxo.

2009-08-25T00:15:00.004+08:00

thanks all fer the text messages:
hsff, firza, amin, karim, fathimah, amalina, anaablur, nabira, afiqah, umairah, joreen, lishan, zafirah, aqilah, bintus, danial, hidayah, zulfiqar, nysa, xida, fatima, nohr, mia, syakirah, uin, zyeza, eunice, aunty yati, larla, azmi bestie, nora azura, nurrishah, iskismail, syikin.

to those who wished through facebook, tagboard and face to face, thanksssss like a gazillion times too.

amin, thanks fer thee celebration over at the titanic last night. i still haven't touch ben&jerry yet! waiting the right time to eat. like i've said, mesti nikmati, bukan murah tu oi!. hahaha. thanks sooooo much bff. i love ya so so so so so frickin' much. and happy one year. ♥

xida, thanks fer lying to me. and make me worth wait fer you at bus stop, thinking that your mum really wanna pass me stuff. i was awed that you really sweat finding small cake fer me. hehehe. worth 3.50 huh. =D HAHA! thanks alot my dear. ♥

wonderous, thanks fer the volcom wallet. i really didn't expect that to come from you girls. its beautiful, and i love it. thankssss like a gazillion times wonderous! and and whatever happens, we still be friends forever k. sayanggggggggggggg korg. ♥

mum, thanks for making me cry the whole night.

p.s to that skinny pig, you don't have to pretend that you remembered my frickin' birthday. i don't like to play pretend with you okay. so unglam. get that in mind pls. thx.

pictures will upload soooon.
i'm dozing off soon.
bye.

2009-08-23T01:55:00.005+08:00

happy birthday haniz. :/
should i make a wish?
don't bother.

happy birthday to zafirah too.

2009-08-20T01:34:00.009+08:00

i wish i wish

for JUICE Mag.
that'll will be the best gift for my eighteenth.

2009-08-18T14:42:00.001+08:00

i miss you

so so so so much

x1000

-_______-

2009-08-16T20:44:00.009+08:00

i have alot in mind, right here right now.
i wish to pour it all out.

- two weeks ago, i stepped into marsiling band. and i've seen alot of changes as a whole. the atmosphere i felt rather different now. i'm like an alien there. i sat with my babies. sadly there's only three of them. the rest? even the sl is not there. i don't wish to spout anything, but to guide them throughout the rehearsal. i tried my best. more sadly, they ain't the best. sorry babies. but this isn't what i expected. ): one word, disappointing. but, i still have faith in you babies k.

- ytd. work was prettymuch fun. with only amin and myself did closing. cos kailin left early. my awesome manager was unexpectedly hyper for some reasons. so we extended till' 11.30pm, and surprisingly camwhore abit. its amin's last day and ma'am last week in delifrance so, layan kan dorg je. hahaha! and with that, looking at both of them my heart saddened cos my journey with them ended. both of them were the ones that i trust most, and that believed in me when i stepped into working world. thanks to them. i'm able to continue working after two months 'break'.
amin, eventho we meet everywk, i'm so gonna miss working with you, hearing you whining 'bout customers, and ignoring you when your masam face starts to show, and also 'SATU HARI BERSAMA HANIZ'. and, many many more. haha. thanks for everything, amin. and i really mean e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. i love you prettymore.
m'am angie, since the day i enter this industry you really have the patience on me despite of countless of reminders 'bout this and that. well i guess i'll never meet any other managers like you. cos you're everything that words could describe you. eventho' my journey with you is a short one, i enjoyed e-v-e-r-y bit of it. it'll be kept deep in my heart. i wish you all the best working in the ir kay. and yes, i'll take every advise that you gave. i love you.

- to you, fckin' asshole
i was surprised that you actually made such remark 'bout me to those people. who are you to judge me when you barely knew me. eh dude, i don't keep any of your pictures, neither i crop out your pictures. i don't stalk you dumbass. i don't even know where you lived. worst, i barely talked to you! i can't even look at you cos you're just a piece of shit! do you know that? you think you a big fck that i would go crazy with. you're just plain childish, and your attitude is worstworstworstworst than a feminine lady. i never met such a guy like you in my life. you're pure disgrace to the world marnnnnnnn. jgn perasan la kay. aku langsung takda feeling sia dgn kau. seriously muka kau tak handsome pun. no wonder orgorg act cold kat aku, ni semua gara-gara kau uh! if you don't stop spouting nonsense now, i swear i'm sooooo gonna trash you upside down. remember this; you're just a piece of shit! @##$%%#@! -__________-

- i miss alot of people in my life. e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e is important in my life. i wonder how they're doing now. where are they? tell me. ):

- awaiting for friday night. there's lots of things to do. but hopefully it goes well. i'm prettymuch sex-cited 'bout this! cos cos cos, erhemmmmmm for me to know for you to find out.

- &boy, i miss you. [veryverymuch] ♥

wish granted.

k bye.

2009-08-13T01:37:00.008+08:00

finally, i've completed basic personal make up class. and will be moving on to advance class after raya. mumsy's gonna sponsor, duhh. part gini semua sanggup uh dia tu. hmpf. i think my future is all in mumsy's hand. tsk.

time check: 3.01 am.
days passed, and i've been staying up late nights. i couldn't sleep. all i did was wondering around house, watched teevee, and browsed thru internet, lookin' at my hp thinking who would have the same disease as mine. why?

i've got school later at eight.
and i'm shagged.

2009-08-12T00:26:00.011+08:00

erika's

i was all geared up for self revision but it all went to trash cos i realised i left my notes inside locker. so i did self practice on my makeup skills, since tmr's final test. and seriously i suck at colours! help??

work can be suck sometimes. but still, i love that french restaurant.

i'm not in my best mood these few days. happy, sad, frustrated, irritated. mixed feelings uh. and i'm not really looking forward for anything this week. and i only realised that next week's my eighteenth. o.0 i've got nothing to expect since most plans canceled due to fasting month. hmmm. well, let nature takes its course laa eh.

i suddenly have the urge to smoke, again. k mrepek i kno'.
stress! ah fml. fck it.

p.s i've changed my msn email to hanizzz-ella@hotmail.com

self adding back to your msn contacts eh. delete the mary.loves.jim@hotmail.com. thx.

k bye mofos.

2009-08-10T23:33:00.017+08:00

well today, dinner over at madjack with hsff.
♥ ♥

boy, nothin' much for your belated birthday present. but i hope you kenyang la kay. and you made my day, despite the shitx i faced at home just now. i will never forget today. (:
saya like kamu sgtsgt.

2009-08-08T11:14:00.008+08:00

adelle's

i can say that i'm a big spender in a bad way. knowing that my pay barely reached hundred fifty. i've spent most on food. due to the fact that everytime money's in my hands, i got fickled minded about shopping. help?? accompanied amin shopping ytd, i envied him. cox he listed down what he needed. whereas me, so much of 'eh i'll buy this!','payday i'm soo gonna buy this!'. i end up buying bangles only, and loads of food. & i got myself thinking the whole night 'bout this. ):

since now, i'm in love wearing leggings. i need more long tops! with that small amount of money left, bugis is the only choice. oooyea, i think what my friends said about me is true. where there's bugis, there's me. -__- fck it.

tmr's plan; work till one, then head straight to bugis. tag, anyone??

and oh, happy 44th birthday singapore! [adv]
p.s i miss sheesha-ing.

nysa, pichass bby. (:

2009-08-07T23:35:00.017+08:00

narcy is the sex.

friday was well spent with cliques. movie 'up' was great, but a bit of draggy. we had a short close-eye session. only nysa was fricking sex-cited throughout the movie. hahaha. accompanied amin shopping. so nysa and myself concluded that, guys are way difficult shopper than girls. betul betul betul? amin, you should act like singaporean okay. you know we know. hahaha.
p.s i had bad hair day. sucks.

all time 'miang' bff:

2009-08-06T22:48:00.003+08:00

I love Adelle's style.

i'm done with role play, like finally. phew. tmr's friday. everyone [well not all] is going to be in red red red. gerek pe. i don't wish to attend tmr's frickin' celebration, but nvm, once a year anyway. &its also going to be only me and syikin. fatima fly off to kay-ayle after sunrise.

menses really took away my mood. and i'm feeling the heat most of the time marnn. fucked up over littlest thing. eat like there's no tmr. to add on, i'm not fully recover from fever yet. sheesh. what a life. i don't feel like leaving the house either. coop myself in room, turn on the max volume, till the window break? yeaa. fml. fck it. warming to all, don't irritate me pls. thx.

p.s i don't want be the middle person or, worst, third party in any way. i treat everyone's the same and equal. if you felt insecure, then that's your problem. i lead my own life, & i'm sick and tired to care so much about what other people think. like it hate it, i don't give a shitxz. (: peace!

i miss nohr and umairah.

2009-08-05T23:03:00.006+08:00

movie with the girls were awesome. 'murderer' is a must watch. tmr's role play! i have yet memorise my script. goodnesss. friday will be red and white day. after which meet up with the cliques. hell yea i miss them alrd. its gonna be fricking funfun friday i hope. hohoho. amin!! aku nak tgk kau senyum eh. no angryface pls. anyway, i have my schedule set for next week and nextnext week. its gonna be hectic and full of shitxz, not. sundayworking which means double pay! woohoo. monday which i hope no other plans clash. hehehe. its alrd august bby. holy mth is weeks time. my eighteenth, hmmmm, i have no idea whats its gona be like this year. lets just leave it to fate aye. hahaha. payday's in by thursday night. but idk when i'm gona get my money. hmpffff. so much of sharing account. sheessssssh. i want maa marnnn-nehhh mummmehhhh. kaaaaching kaaaching!

tonight's full moon. oh, i love you, full moon.

2009-08-04T19:08:00.013+08:00

HAPPIEST NINETEENTH HASIFFHAMRAN [!!]
Sorry to make you go down under the blk just for that cake. Muka busuk sei! But, nice right right. Huhuhu. May you bless with full of happiness and long live. Boy, Madjack on Monday kay kay. ♥

2009-08-02T19:59:00.021+08:00

[amin, see! first okay. just for you. haha!]

friday. watched harry potter with hsff. he was alrd feelin' irritated by the people infront of us. and behind us, they're like having their own picnic. wtfff. the movie was okay for me. there's rupert! i likeeeee. hehehe! ion orchard, you're fcking big. but sadly there's no 'mr bean' around. i was craving for tht watermelon soy milk out of the sudden. i didn't want anyt else. and i think, hsff got irritated by my fickle minded. huhuhu. pms. what'd you expect.

saturday was shagged. morning was band rehearsal. then my cliques had lunch, went bugis for nysa's stuff, had dessert at nearby coffeeshop, headed to paragon to support jazz band. we went to toys'r'us, and by then everyone's half dead alrd. we headed to marina sq for fireworks. waited waited. tht frickin' karim wanna go home alrd. until nysa said he look like one of GG cast, Chuck Base? [whatever his name is -.-] he started to pose here and there, nysa was tryna take his purrrfect angle. pantat uh tu karim! hahaha. nysa, you did the right thing actually for making him wait for fireworks, but karim, you fckin irritating, even kat escalator mrt pun nak pose. hahahaha! nvm. aku love korg sgtsgt. amin! kau pun kay. xoxo

what makes my saturday the best? bumping onto very important people in my life that'll forever-n-everrrr be in my heart. my fav girls that we chiong for our fricking olvls obviously! yana, sarah, rozmira, zyeza, and uin [!!] waaa kita da mcm makcik makcik. ♥

[we decided to take typical mats&minahs pose. hahaha!]

tmr's monday? ahh damn. it's gonna be another hectic week.
but one thing fo' sure, movie with my girls [fatty and syikin] after school. like finally!

p.s forty eight more hours to go, boy. pls don't hate your day. ♥

till then. hasta la vista mofos.

2009-07-30T10:45:00.002+08:00

life's been a bitch. fml. fck it. ):
can i get any happier? don't want blame pms. bad news kept coming in. fck off.

2009-07-28T18:18:00.009+08:00

office communication test is tmr. office software application test on thursday. customer relation role play script to be hand in on thursday, too. lifeskills homework on personal finance management on friday. gahh! fml. fck it.

i have twenty bucks with me now. by end of the week, will be around thirty five? sadly, it'll be gone even befo monday comes. tsktsk! nvm. money come and go. money can earn. betul betul betul?

on brighter note, i'm sex-citeddddd for friday. huhuhu! ^.^v

2009-07-23T23:50:00.011+08:00

school was gggrrreat. osa lesson for an hour. after which bonding session, with two for one pizzas, and hell loads of games. amazing race was unexpected. my team won the first. huhu. i swear, if everyday were to have physical training like these, i could lose weight marnnnnn. okay sshh.

went home and changed. fatty and i went vivo, and bugis as planned. and i'm so wanting to smack her face, cox her fickle minded really got on my nerves. i think that salesperson already damn us. i mean her. hahaha! but atleast she bought some stuffs. ate late dinner over at burgerking. god knows how hungry i am. but food was horrible. damn. & we didn't realised tmr was friday, which means school. pffffft. okay i'm so gonna drag myself then.

on brighter note. i've been eyeing alotlotlotlotlot of tops and dresses over at bugis street since today. & i'm sooooo gonna buy it. that depends how much i've save, plus payday's in weeks time. which i don't think i'll get much tho'. tsk! moneymoneymoney. well one thing for sure, part of my pay's gonna spend on one and only. erhemm. i've planned out properly/nicely/whatever its called. so i hope it'll happen, and go through smoothly. huhuhu. =D

time checked: 2.05 am.

i'm pretty much wide awake. slap me anyone? and i ain't having proper meals this week. gahh. saving up money for the best. (: nvm. i'll be fine, i guess.

i think i'm gonna skip crn lesson later at eight. cox if i were to sleep now, i won't be able to wake up. i need the sleep. cox tmr's loooooooong day for me. school, then band till late nights. waaahhh. pfffft. its friday! goodnesssss i need a life. fck it.

harry potter! anyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. hmmmm.
okay till then miss me, mofckers. peace!

2009-07-21T11:53:00.001+08:00

I want watch Harry Potter ):

Anyone?

p.s i'm hungry. and my lunch break is loooooooooooong way to go.

2009-07-20T17:38:00.026+08:00

firstly, i want post a shout out to this old guy (above). take good care of yourself dude. you looked like a rotten potato when you're sick. rest fully laa k. don't tired yourself. jgn jadi degil! & ya he's my new bff. LOL (!!) k puas hati kau, amin. hahahaha. *hugss*

last week went pretty well for me. i enjoyed most of the days with awesome people, despite boring school hours. never failed to amaze me with their humour. ok, here's the pictures at random, from thursday to saturday. (:

and hsff and i missed the fireworks. we were late. damn ): i was kinda looked forward to see. but nvm, no use get mad. there's still fireworks festival. gonna catch it! whose with me?! hohoho.

and and like finally i could wear my everlast shoe! woohooooooo. after a week of painful, and unbearable blisters. hahaha. k too dramatic. but who cares!

till' then, miss me mofos! xoxo.

2009-07-19T15:45:00.005+08:00

for seven months working in a french restaurant, with two months of hiatus, i've never post anything 'bout my ups and down in there. well let this be the first one. work was hectic today. and honestly, today was the most i felt so much irritated, and frustrated with fricking customers. i swear i was cursing deep inside of me, but work has to be done. i swear i rather wear roller blade so i don't need to run here and there. like diner dash you know. hahaha. customers like so making full use of our restaurant till they didnt even care how they eat. like as if they have holes on their lips, or they actually sat on the floor instead of the comfy cushion. and asked for cups of h2o, but in the end not even a sip. and keep asking to heat up the food, one by one. one by one okay. wth. and don't they have any patience. we know they're hungry monsters. still its fricking irritating. well its a good thing we have service charge. hohoho. i'm working more than my pay. yet i'm enjoying working, with wonderful colleagues, in that french restaurant. (:

okay, right now, i'm like babysitting my two fricking siblings. with my lil sister talking right beside my ear, and she just farted! what the fuck! hahahaha! and now she's slapping and pinching. i swear i wanna smack her fricking face. woohoo. and lil brother is choosing movies from the stack of cds. waa we having marathon marnn. due to parents freeeeeeee!

migraine really have no mercy on me since yesterday night. but keeping myself talking and laughing might help, i think. ): ahhhh sakit.

boy, i'm sorry if ytd's conversation might shocked you, eventho you're not in the mood. but just rmbr one thing, i've never regret knowing you. and you'll always be my good friend. ♥

2009-07-17T00:36:00.004+08:00

feeling the worst i ever had.
you suck, get the fricking picture.
fck it.

2009-07-14T12:56:00.011+08:00

Mixed feelings. Is that good?
Boy, I'm slowly falling for you.
But, there's barriers that stop me from liking you in depth.
Please slap me, anyone.
And oh, I miss you.
xoxo

2009-07-13T23:07:00.010+08:00

happiest eighteenth birthday mia lovesss!
finally, you're legal bby. hohoho!
may you filled with all the happiness and love around you.
i hope you like the tweety cake. =D
anyway, may our wondergirls friendship last.
i love you, mia! xoxo
p.s i'm sorry for everything that happened before. i'll make it up to our wonderloves k . sayang korg! ♥

&& also to my sarah saerah. happiest eighteenth too, young woman!

2009-07-10T00:07:00.012+08:00

Simply amazing.

Its Friday! First week of school was hectic, I think. Like a daily routine, I always wake up praying and hoping good things happen. I can't wait to work later in the evening. I'm broke, totally. I have to save for school transport due to the fact daddy ain't paying for my concession for now. I'm sick and tired of life. But I'm living my life to the fullest. Amazing huh? I'm slowly falling in love? I don't know. I don't need history repeats itself. So fck it. Its 12.33 am. Everyone's snoring their ass off already. I should be studying right now, but my mind is disturbed. Fck. & Pixie Lot is amazing I tell you.

I can still feel the pain of those freaking blisters! I can barely walked properly, at times. Its just too painful. Ahh damnn! Tahan maha tahan sei ni. Till then, miss me people! xoxo

2009-07-08T10:03:00.005+08:00

What will you do if you have blisters on both sides of your back foot?

Damn. Its painful. & I'm walking like a zombie.

Oh plasters, you ain't making me feel any better.

-__________________-"

I'm in campus right now, and I'm supposed to do this office software application.
Its fcking irritating, and stressing, I tell you. Mcm toooooooooot. Okay sabar Hanizzz sabar.
Okay bye mofos. Love me. Hate me. Miss me. xoxo

2009-07-02T17:34:00.007+08:00

Happiest Eighteenth Noriyah!
Like finally, you're legal!
May you're blessed with full of love and happiness.
You still owe me popcorn ykno. Hohoho.
I love you small woman! xoxo

I can't believe next week's already school! I didn't really had a good holiday marn. I'm packed with band, random outings, and work. 3 weeks ain't enough. I want sleep! Gah. I have yet done project and revision, and script.Yes, script! Oh ma shit. How could i forgotten?! Okay I think I'm soooo gona start soon. Yes soon, very very soon. I just need my schoolstuff, my comfy sofa, and a nice weather. Ooooo nice weather tho today. Ahh damn. So many things to do, so little time.

I'm looking forward to something that I've wrote on my note for quite some time. Its happening soon before I knew it. Hehehe. For me to know, for you to find out. *wide grin*

Anaablur, gua kangen bangat sama lo. You owe me a hug. ♥

2009-07-01T22:50:00.008+08:00

Hsff, here you go. -__________-
Hahaha.

Before.

After.
p.s I likeeeeeeeee that eyelashesssss! Hohoho.

So yaa. I followed mumsy down to her mak andam class, as I have to be her student's freaking model. But this time only make up, not photoshoot. I don't want. Hehehehe. I likeeeeee my face lor. Cox I looked soooooooooooo like bride. Mak! Nak kahwin! =D

I bused back to Causeway to meet Soulmate. Hehehehe. I saw Sir Chris at Delifrance Causeway. God knows, how ecstatic I was. Hahahaha.

Okay Hsff, da puassss? Promise a promise right. ^.^v

2009-06-30T12:06:00.013+08:00

wonderloves, i miss you.

I feel rather lost.
I feel like something's missing in my life.
But, I don't know what is it.
I feel like I need alot to catch up.
But, I'm not sure where to start.
Oh God.

Yesterday badminton session with Xida, Sadik, Karim and Rifaii. Great fun with great people. I'm feeling the aching already. Pfft! I couldn't sleep last night, so I end up feeling rather cranky out of boredom. I was about to tell a riddle/joke to Hsff, when he didnt reply my last text. Cox he's already in his lalaland. Goodness! From then, I realised its already past midnight. Obviously la Hanizzzzzz. Hahahaha. Atleast Hsff entertained my crap even when he's busy battling with maths. Warrior maa, right Hsff.

Can I say that I miss 5s2 darlingssss?
Can I say that I miss Marsiling Concert Band?
Can I say that I miss Dhaimirah, Fateha, Afiq, Asyurah and the rest of them?
Can I say that I miss my trb babiessss, Hajarah Qiying Ibqnu Rahim?

)): ahhh fck!

p.s ass, you think your band is damn fcking good. well face it. i think mine is better. three damn consecutive years fcking straight Gold. yours is just one damn fcking year only. no big fuck okay. you didn't even come back to your own fcking band to help out. and talk like damn fcking big about it. what? tumpang glamour? yaa marsiling band is neighbourhood school, so be it. i don't think yours is any better. why must these people live in this world. make the earth so heavy only. ha ha ha.

2009-06-25T14:53:00.013+08:00

Ain't feeling the best I ever had. I suck at it, big time. Well, it take two hands to clap anyway. I'm happy you, boy. Right now, I don't know how should I feel for myself. I feel like I'm a failure. ): I hate it.
p.s Boy, I like you so much. But too bad, maybe I'm not good for you. She's pretty and suits you. Well, good luck then.

2009-06-23T20:47:00.024+08:00

Saturday 20 June 2009, Band Outing @ Sentosa.
Sadly, not many turn up though. But, it was a blast! ♥
There's hell loads of our pictures in Facebook, so unglam yet adorable.

[stresssss?]

(dear trb matesss)

(damn, laughing my ass out over thissss [!!])

2009-06-23T18:43:00.003+08:00

down.
i need a hug.
warm and tight one.
):

love love love.
i suck at it. big time.

2009-06-21T10:34:00.040+08:00

I've been out 'til late nights this whole freaking week. God knows how shagged I am. But, with awesome mofos around, life's still blossoming like there's tomorrow.

I'm pretty much a busy woman lately. Hohoho. & I spent most of the days with my awesome ite band matessssssss, eventho' have to travel to and fro Simei. mcm ass. -__-

MONDAY

rehearsal at UCC NUS.
with Fusion Band (trombone, trumpet, kompang, keyboard), and Show Choir.
we wore an artiste landyard. artiste okay! hohoho.
well, i like the dressing room tho'. ^.^
rehearsal time was sucha an asssss.

Tuesday

actual performance at UCC NUS was great.
we're hungry monstersss, while waiting for freaking lunch time.
yet, i had fun times with them.

after everything's over, IO2's pit over at the East Coast.
tawn with my baby lyana at her secret place. its a nice place.
we had our inside joke about 24hr flyer. pfft!
and we actually slept like a swine. byk la power nap. -__- hahaha.

well, this is my current bunch of mofos, IO2. (:

and that's my baby lyana. hehehehe. i love you to the maxim ♥

On Wednesday night, traveled all the way from kallang to sleepover at babygirl's house. I was fascinated with her nail polish that I painted my nails like Jamaica flag. Hehehehe. I likeee. & babygirl talked on the phone with i-dont-know-who, she kept bumping ontop of me and did you-dont-wish-to-know. Hahahaha. GRRR pain yknow. Okay I sound soooo wrong. No that's not what you think okay. Hahaha. The next day, I'm back home, like finally. On Friday, freaking early morning back to Simei again for full dress rehearsal of upcoming big event on Monday. Its was a short one, then we headed down to TM GV for Land of the Lost. Great movieeeee, cause its freeeeeee. Hehehe. Thanks Jonathan! After that, headed back to Simei for sectionals till nine. Waa sian you know. But, I had a great laugh with my trombone matesssss. Hahahaha. We were talking about some topic, end up laughing our ass out over some jokes. LOL. For once, I don't feel that tired despite full day. I didn't know my dear trombone matesss sucha dumb dumb. :D We got bored, and did some camwhoreeeee. xoxo

representing, ite concert band trombone section. *woohooo! clapclapclap*

and and this is our best shot. hohoho. taaadaa! ^.^
fyi, i was asked to pose like that okay. grrr.

Anyway yesterday was a blast. It was band outing to Sentosa! Wooohooo for me cause after quite some time I didn't step into that place. We ate, talked, laughed, joked around, and countless of games we played. Hohoho. I hurt two people with my freaking long nails during the games. Sorryyyy :S Some of us headed to Siloso Life's a beach party. I was turned off, cause alot of matsssss and minsssss. I bumped onto babygirl and met lyana. Both of them freaking pretty and sexy. That's my girlsssss. Hahaha. I didn't stay for long, cause I damn tired already by then, and then headed home. I wanted to tawn and party but nevermind next time laa kay. (:

Seeeee busy woman rightt. Hohoho.
Today's final rehearsal I didn't attend. ): Sorry. Tmr's big day, surely I come.
Pictures for band outing will post as soon as I receive okay.

2009-06-15T22:09:00.006+08:00

deadbeat. help?

well today, went for technical run for ite graduation day. early in the morning, planned to meet I.R. but it was cancelled. cause we got bumping planss. ): extreme sad. then wanted to meet afiq&friends. but they already went for sheesha first. i was fucking damn pissed. 'cause that technical run took quite some time. grr. so trained back to woodlands with karim. we're sucha mofo ass, bitching about people. gila tu anak. lol. and amin, tu baju betul nya besar, tapi takpela. kau kan aku nya bff tersyg sekali. thanks ehh. i love you to the maxim. hehehe! and and shazzie, i'll give you back your baju and red tie on friday k. thanks alotlot mofos.

i hate plans to be cancelled. the feeling so not great okay.
-_______- to my dear IO2, i'm sorry. hope you guys have fun yeah man.

fyi, i won't be home for few days. bawa diri uh.
bye. miss me mofos! xoxo.

fsh boy, i miss you ):

2009-06-09T14:29:00.004+08:00

You leave me alone.

For months.

You leave me confused.

Now you're back.

I don't know what to do.

Should I feel happy?

-____________-

2009-06-07T12:35:00.025+08:00

FRIDAY

Bimbesties played pool over at Simei before band practice. One thing for sure, I suck at it. Big time. Watch movie 'UP' next week okay! Can't wait can't waittttttt liao. Hohoho. ^.^

SATURDAY

Amin was late for the first time. We missed the bus too. Hahaha. But we weren't late for band rehearsal I think. Our clique were formally dressed, very handsome and pretty. Hehehe.
Yaddiyaddiyaya.
Hsff was one hour late. One hour okay! I got irritated to the max. But he kept apologising. *evil laugh* Other than that, he was fucked up with some assholes. Hahaha. So I end up laughing at him. Hohoho. Overall, he made my day. ^.^ & Hsff, nice right the pictures I took. Expert mah. Hohoho!

2009-06-04T13:37:00.010+08:00

Currently in Campus
I hate it here. ):

Dear 2010, do please come faster.

I want get somewhere far.

2009-06-02T11:22:00.004+08:00

Currently in Campus

Weather's rather humid, yet windy. I felt better now, with someone bugging me to eat medication. (: But having split personality really irritates, due to having second-day menses. I have good company in school. I think. I miss Soulmate. I want to laugh like pig with her, and whine hell loads of stuff to her.

to whom may concern:

I don't know whether I should trust you now. Actions speaks louder than words. You do different from whatever shits you said, boy. If people don't trust you, should I? I tried. I tried to believe all your words. But if you could lie to your own good friend, then I wonder if you ever lie to me. I wonder. I tried not. I feel disheartened for you, boy. We've grown up already, and have our own brains to think. You think, why I kept avoiding you. Your attitude, behaviour, and words are more hurtful. I felt awkward.

2009-06-01T01:21:00.005+08:00

high fever.flu.cough.
you don't care.

yes you.you're in your own world.
you've forgotten me as your friend isn't it.
who are you now.undefined as it is.
disappointed in you.like i'd said, i've lost a bestmate.
and i can't afford to lose any mates now. ):
bye.

2009-05-26T13:08:00.006+08:00

model: umairah

i'm done with all these shitx. i hate them.

benci benci benci benci benci benci (!!)

nuff' said mofos.

on the brighter note; i'm in loveeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-05-18T23:46:00.007+08:00

And so, these two mofos waited for me end school at three, and we headed down to Tampines. We somehow did some catch ups, and spent time with 'birthday woman' in the picture there, the middle one. Hohoho! Happiest eighteenth Anaa! I hope you like the littlest card that I did quite last minute, and also the cheap headband you've been wanting to buy. ^.^v Wear to school okay! And takmo sedihsedih, not good for a woman like you. Hahaha! ♥ xoxo

Now, I'll be honoured to present the world, the uglyfugly mofos. Hohoho!
Presenting...... (drum rollss)

(Susu the swine)

(Haziq the anak pak haji bakhil)

(Niz Sneeze, creator of swineflu)